I have several verbal and written commitments to join the Women’s Group I am trying to start…. It should be interesting. Different ages, backgrounds, and life philosophies- but all looking to enhance their perspective, coming to the understanding that it may take a village!!!!
This morning, I was staring off in to space and I had a thought of losing My God Daughter. My eyes welt up and a tear dropped from my eye. I allowed myself to feel that pain, I didn’t fight it. It overwhelmed me and it was okay. It allowed me to see there is something greater than I. The Love I have for my little lady reminds me why I should fight for a “just existence”. She deserves a beautiful place to co-exist!!!!
For years I have sailed the waters in search for land. The open sea has allowed me to visit many places, enjoy many things, and even leave with some souvenirs. What has escaped me is somewhere to dock my ship, somewhere I can unload my experiences. The last time I believed I have found such a place, I was ambushed by mixed emotions and uncertain thoughts. I loved the scenery and the heart of the land gave me a feel of retirement; I thought I would never sail again. Woke up one day ejected from my bed, rejected by paradise, with an understanding I can always visit but not stay. So, I am back on the tides in search for the type of home that I can grow old with; the type of soil I can plant seeds and raise them because they will be ours. I want to settle in a place that I feel placed, not continue to move from place to place. I am so sick of the sea that I am sea-sick. The voyage must go on, and the adventures will process. I won’t quit; either I’ll drown at sea or find that paradise costume made for me!!!!
If my art crafts a world that can function in peace, then people can make billions off my words and I would still share the wealth. If my consistency is maintained and my faith is never broken, I will continue to persist as a constituent. My mind belongs to the world and my heart is devoted to the Heavens. Hell, my mind and heart is dedicated to making this world Heaven. The endless work of repairing can cause a person to break down, but the satisfaction of seeing someone repaired always builds me back up. I am educated enough to articulate my thoughts, and heartfelt enough to take action; I am a force to be reckoned with, yet I don’t use it recklessly. I enjoy seeing others truly live. I Love challenging people to live truthfully. Some believe it’s not my place, but I remind them I pay rent like everybody else. I will speak when others remain speechless. I will act while others continue to be actors. I just want to heal by killing killing. Remember, we are human beings, and survival takes being humane; so when my craft is reality, it will be a work of art!!!!
If you’re not ready to build our relationship from the ground up, don’t sign up for construction. I will ask a lot of questions, expecting more answers. I want to know everything about anything involving you. I want to understand you inside out, though I was attracted to you from outside in. I believe in the process of getting to know you, but you have to believe in getting to know me. This relationship won’t be one-sided where you’re looking into my eyes and only see yourself. A great relationship is composed of a rhythm that matches the beat. It’s the bravery to open our minds and trust in our heart. It’s much more than what we feel; it’s how we feel. It’s far beyond what we think; it’s how we execute those thoughts. We are no longer independent, we’re co-dependent. Love will test if we are willing; willing to ignore every distraction and continue to work. Work towards a generation that will be comprised of our dedication. We will be a dynasty driven by our destiny; we will show the world we were destined to be us.
I can’t predict what you are feeling. All I can do is wrap my arms around you in hopes my warmth will enhance your temperature. I was not the cause of your mood, but I know I can affect whether your mood changes. There is no tragedy worse than pushing your Loved ones away when you experience something tragic. I am in your life as an enhancement, not just for my own advancement. I am here to provide what’s necessary, whether it be an ear, some words, or just a silent embrace. Don’t close up; this is the time to be open. Let me in; allow me to carry some of the pain. You believe it’s not too heavy, but it can be lighter if we’re both holding up our ends. It won’t be a burden unless you allow it to burn us; and even then I will use my last breath to extinguish the flames. I Love you, that means you have my heart and my undivided attention!!!!
Rain is hitting the pavement as I look up, showering my soul with the purest water to wash away all the dirty feelings of pain. I open my mouth hoping a few drops will be enough to cleanse my heart of heartless thoughts. I cry, mixing my sorrow with the smiles of a new. I watch a plant grow from the concrete, realizing nothing can stop progression. I was promoted by a higher purpose to suck all the disbelief from others, replacing it with faith. Love pollutes my words to act as a reminder to remain positive in a storm that dampens plans to ride off in the sunset. It isn’t dreaming when it could be produced; it isn’t hoping when it’s been done before. Head high, I slip on doubters, bracing my fall with my ability to comprise proof. Love is real…. ~AmazinglyBrash~ #DreamAwake