~ The soul hits the paper displaying a heartbeat that is muted by the deafness of a guarded mind. The blood rushes in their presence but you’re too thin to clot, scared to admit that you’re admiration has allowed you to circulate. Feeling the joy that once betrayed, you betray the feeling, but this joy promises the pleasure of a lifetime of happiness; it refuses to prove it’s worthiness, so you must work along side it before walking together. It won’t acknowledge your past because it’s certain about the future, yet you close up to being opened. And the gift was left under the tree…. ~AmazinglyBrash~
1.) It Starts Becoming a Job:
The newness of the beginning is usually enough to jump-start a man, and moisten a woman. Hearts both pumping with anticipation of how it’s going to be; minds running from the excitement of connecting, and the chemistry seems to be perfected. Fast forward to the actual relationship; bills, children, and conflicting schedules….He wants a quickie, she wants romance, shit, she wants a quickie, but he is quicker. When they aren’t arguing, they’re fatigued; when they aren’t fatigued, they’re in separate parts of the house. She enjoyed giving him head in the morning; now she is just scared he is going to get it somewhere else. He took pride in pleasing her; now he wants a thank you if he makes her cum. It all became work, and nobody believes they are getting paid enough.
2.) They Start to Swallow Their Tongues:
How can sex have passion when their partner stops caring what the other is passionate about?
Remember the long nights of non-stop information? Talking about likes and dislikes, past mistakes and how they both have grown, and in between all that, the 50 compliments? Now dislikes are only thought about to avoid conflict; the mistakes are only brought up in anger, and the 50 compliments have turned into complaints. So they barely talk; when one isn’t offended, the other is defensive. They’re both guessing instead of knowing, thinking instead of talking, and back-to-back instead of facing forward. They lost the passion to ask….
3.) Believing in Better:
They spend years perfecting the perfect choreographed routine just to resent the perfection of each others work. He has a younger co-worker that is showing him affection; dolled up, same memorable scent, sexier outfits everyday. He comes home asking, “Why don’t you do this and that?” Believing he is working on his relationship, but really, trying to change the comfort of consistency. She’s flattered by his smile. A man that has greeted her every morning for the past three years, but the last month that smile has tickled her. She doesn’t know him beyond his well-mannered disposition, but she fantasizes about a life with him, while belittling the life with her partner because she believes there is more to life. They have both forgotten that you can’t just dance with any partner for a lifetime, it takes practice and knowing the steps blindly; the perfect routine.
4.) The Simplicity of the Simple Things:
Walking in the door, taking the time to look eye to eye and just saying, “I Love you”, staring into their partners eyes for a second longer before they hug them with their heartbeat; expressing the reasons the billions were narrowed down to one and why. Putting the children to bed and planning alone time….A movie or television series, a discussion or reading the same book and debating perspective, planning a trip together, alternate in making the first move. Allow the feelings to boil over until both people are well done. Passion walks out because so many people forget to let it in!!!!
Being a student is studying your partners every want, fulfilling their every need, and preparing to pass every test encountered. A 4.0 will keep the Love perfect. Count the smiles, settle the disagreements, and maintain the chemistry. Major in their happiness, refuse to drop out, and earn your degree. Once you graduate, you can start a family; invest wealth into your children and save enough to live in each others passion, remembering to never forget what was learned, because it has taught you how to find forever!!!!
I am sitting here watching Dr. Phil’s “Inside the mind of a mistress”….
These mistresses are being blamed for breaking a home that they didn’t build. They are being questioned about accepting an opportunity that was given to them by a man that’s supposed to honor his commitments. These women have been deceived by the same men these wives aren’t leaving, yet the “heart involved mistresses” are expected to do what the wives are having the hardest time doing. We debate if it’s easier to leave after ten years or one when everything is still fresh? The answers vary, but either way, both people feel vested, territorial, and don’t want to be the one to leave. People will say the wife was there first so the mistress should walk; others say, the wife should allow him to see if the grass is truly greener and she should walk; but the correct answer is they both should walk if it’s about integrity, self-worth, or the sanctity of Love. Is it about those things? No….It’s about volleying the blame from one woman to the other. “You shouldn’t date a married man;” “If she was taking care of her husband he wouldn’t be in my bed;” “You are low if you must break up a happy home,” “If your home was happy I couldn’t be here to break it.” Isn’t there something wrong with that picture? Isn’t someone missing? The man. Women make it so easy. They fight for us instead of fighting to leave us, blaming women that fell into the same trap as the women that came before them. Yes, we are stressed when we get caught, but with no court we aren’t guilty. We will continue as long as there are women who continue blaming the women over the man. Everyone wants Love, so when the pseudo Love is given to the uneducated, they believe….Who’s at fault????
She couldn’t look me in my face because she believed she didn’t deserve me. I was offended, wondering, “Why would I give my heart to someone that didn’t deserve it?” I put my emotions to the side and seen her eye to eye; without words I kissed her on the forehead, reminding her that I will never settle for less. I placed her ears on my heart, allowing her to hear where she is housed; then I expressed, “There isn’t any proof that you’re deserving of me, or me you, all we have is the purity of a kiss and our hearts as homes”….
The pain is holding me hostage; tried to escape so many times, but I was recaptured by the strength of this emotion. Never thought you would be the one to imprison me because I felt so free around you. I seen salvation in your eyes but deception in your heart. You used the words “I Love You” so much I was brainwashed to believe them. Now I have dried and I am ready to fold. Wanting to reach out and release the chains, but I am shackled to my principles. I waited for one romantic grand gesture, it never showed up. I am torn up, tortured with the idea I only believed. I seen the sun shine in the window, but the day continues to break and my heart has broken with the arrival of night. I am In-Love with the death penalty!!!! ~AmazinglyBrash~
He said, she said, who said what? We can pretend to look the other way, but we have ears on both sides. We could leave the room, but word of mouth travels faster than any human’s ability to walk. So we sit and listen….sucked in by every syllable, swallowed by each word; digesting the controversy, but half of it is lost in the toilet. By the time you burp it back up there’s just a scent of what was actually ingested. Gossip is a story half told; a truth that has been embellished, or vengeance from the opinion of an emotion. It’s the soap opera of life and it’s the reason why soap operas have life. We watch and talk about everyone’s life to entertain ours, lacking the compassion to be passionate; the more tears, the more to talk about; the more fighting, the healthier the feed-back. We’re drawn to hate being dramatized, playing the critics and adding what we would or wouldn’t have done; suffocated by all the information, smothered by all the pain, but revived by the idea that it will continue. Word of mouth is good, but not when it takes words out of others mouths. We gossip because we have nothing better to do; we gossip because we want to feel better than you!!!! ~AmazinglyBrash~