Depleted to Renew
My heart is buried so deep in depression, it has me feeling oppressed. Losing someone that holds your future is hard, but making them your past is even harder. We waltzed around forever; so many times we ended up back where we started. She refused to fight for us, and I got fed up with fighting her so we can be an us. The picture of my wife had her in the frame, but the idea of my life had thoughts of a more confident and self-assured woman. Our plan was to date until she understood her worth, but she started using my sense of worth to minimize feeling worthy. My heart fell, but my principles wouldnt allow me to stay down. Now, I am broken, putting all the pieces back together; assessing all the wrong turns I made that prevented me from reaching my destination. I missed her the minute the door closed; now, I have to wait for one to open. I cant help but to hope she walks through, but it seems we are through. The reality of that reality forces me to be realistic and turn to my faith. The higher power won’t shorten my circuits without building a stronger version of me, allowing the electricity to pass through so I can let down my guards and be weak again. That person will dig my heart out and lead me to happiness!!!!